MY EXPERIENCE OF YOU

Forward

From far and wide to near and dear, you have touched my life.

Whether you are a book, TV commercial moment or show, an online course, an old dear friend or newly met, or seemly a stranger who just passed by.  You know the ones, the driver that cuts you off or the stranger on the news that makes the headline of the day.

All precious beings doing the jobs they came here to do.  I love you all.

Chapter 1

I have been waking up with a title in my head.  A couple of months ago, it was The Structure Of....  I immediately got up and started writing them down.  When the well dried up, I counted 22 titles.  My husband and I were both born on the 22nd.  Six stories have been written, and now I am wondering if this one fits one of the titles.  Or for that matter, any one of the other multiple writings.

Let's start with our basic family unit.  Are they near and dear?  Of all the different places and situations we could have been born into, why did we choose this one?

Here I sit, born and raised in Canada  - a typical middle class upbringing, feeling disgruntled, beaten down, being hard on myself, like I have been fighting an uphill battle.  Why?  I could have chosen a third world, war ridden country - what do I have to complain about?  Really? 

Is my 'stuff' really that important in the scheme of things?  I remind myself that I am a flea on the back of an ant, on the back of a mouse, on the back of a cat on the back of a dog on the back of a horse on the back of a camel on the back of an elephant.  You get the idea, I am just a tiny weenie piece of the bigger puzzle.

All my life I have tried to feel better by this type of thinking bigger.

In my teens I volunteered once a week at a nursing home.  I always felt better after a shift, as there were so many people worse off than I was.

Chapter 2

Everything is going my way.  Synchronicity moments are flooding my life.  Divine guidance is present.  Relationships have healed.  I have healed on so many levels.  I experience a deeper sense of peace.

So why do I still feel there is something missing?  My actions tell me so.  I still fly off the handle and over react at situations, at my husband, at drivers on the road.  Still fall into the trap of giving energy to a friends journey.  Most of all, my body functions tell me so.  

Still have work to do in polishing my own Gem In I.  

As I sit here in the flow of divine love energy, I wonder what the 'missing something' is.

Sage