THE BIRTH OF AN IDEA

The Birth of An Idea

(History of Senior Wellness Clinic’s)

Let’s take a moment to honor Norah Bain and the legacy she left for the citizens of the City of Richmond.  The year was 1997 and the idea that Norah had, was to create a monthly program in Richmond where the general public of all ages could have access to Holistic Practitioners.   

As the story goes, one day, she happened to mention her program idea while visiting the Richmond Women’s Resource Centre at the

Caring Place

.  A partnership was formed, brochures and posters were circulated and the monthly Holistic Night program began.

 

Registration began at 6:30 p.m. on the 3^rd Monday of the month.  It was 1^st come 1^st served, so we soon had numbers to hand out to people as they arrived.  As your number was called you had a choice of practitioners to choose from in the available 7 – 9 p.m. time slots.  To create an energy exchange, a suggested donation of $5.00 was established, which was donated to the Women’s Resource Centre.

Each month, Norah phoned her growing list of practitioners to remind them of the Holistic Night.  She never knew who or how many would show up.  We had a white board that the practitioners signed in on when they arrived and that is how the clients knew what and who was available that evening.  She trusted the Universe to provide and it always did.  The needed number of practitioners would magically arrive for the number of clients that came.  Eventually monthly email reminders replaced the bulk of the phone calls. 

The program continued to evolve.  Next we booked guest speakers to entertain the public while they were waiting, sometimes for 2 hours, for their session.  Then the practitioners wanted to see the guest speakers too, so we had the guest speaker come early and speak to the practitioners first while the public was signing up for sessions.  At 7.00 when the sessions started, the guest speaker would then start another presentation for the public.  It was a challenge, speaking to an audience that changed every ½ hour as new people arrived from and others left to go to their session.

Eventually, Norah talked 2 of us into taking over her job.  We had developed a list of over 100 Holistic Practitioners encompassing everything from Ear Acupuncture, Iridology, Bach Flower Remedy, Reiki, Healing Touch, Touch for Health, Therapeutic Touch, Reflexology, Craniosacral Therapy, to name a few.  And the guest speakers we attracted were professionals and authors. 

People started asking if we could take the program to the Minoru Seniors Centre, so on July 18^th, 2001, we met with Howard Palliser, the Recreation Programmer, who had already heard about us from some of the seniors.  We agreed to start the Holistic Practitioners sessions tagging on to the monthly Blood Pressure Clinic that was already running.  To start with, the suggested donations went to the Minoru Seniors Centre.  This changed and the suggested $5.00 donation was given to the Holistic Practitioner.

For a myriad of reasons, after 6 years, we made the decision to end the Holistic Night program and said our farewells at the November 17^th, 2003 session.

And the rest is history.  Fast forward to November 2011, and the present day Seniors Wellness Clinic program that has evolved and developed into city wide monthly programs at 7 community centre’s and now includes manicures, pedicures, facials and the Blood Pressure Clinic, as well as the annual Activate Wellness Fair.  

Written Nov 2011

A DAY OF REST

I have been thinking about this for months now.  Today, as I sat quietly in my morning meditation ritual, more thoughts were connecting with me and this story began to unfold and take shape. 

My morning ‘meditation ritual’, as I wrote those words a part of me asked, “what meditation ritual?”  Although I must admit I am getting better at developing and practicing a routine of sitting quietly for a chunk of time, somewhere.  Sometimes that is why I get up and push myself to go to the local mall weekday mornings for the ‘Tai Chi’ group.  Sometimes I find myself drawn to walk around the mall instead of following along with the exercises.  One day I decided to sit in a lovely comfy chair.  I had a quiet time with myself, capped off with a magical meeting up with an old friend.  We had a wonderful conversation as we continued walking the mall together.

Last week I was drawn to follow my nose which led me outside, where I noticed the sunrise taking shape in the sky.  My walk took me around to the other side of the building and as I held the door open for a little old lady with a walker, the magic continued.  She told me that she was 101 and still lived on her own.  She comes across the street to the mall every morning for the walk.  She does her own cooking and cleaning and her 75 year old son takes her grocery shopping when she needs to go.  She kindly agreed to come and meet my husband.  It was a delightful experience that continues to warm my heart.  I wonder by her usual perch most mornings to stop and say ‘hi’ and get my Jean fix.

Then this morning came and I choose to stay at home instead of going to exercise, all the while wondering why I didn’t just kick my ass and get going.  All those ‘shoulds’ we lace ourselves with.  So here I sit sharing this idea of “A Day of Rest” noticing how my mind was blank, struggling to remember… when the phone rings.  It was my mom and we had a wonderful conversation, truly enjoyable.  So now I know why I was meant to be here.

I am taking A Day of Rest. 

Yes, it is a Tuesday as I write this.  No, it doesn’t have to be on a Sunday.  And if you can’t schedule in a day, make it a half day, an hour, or even a minute is good.  Minutes do add up.

Turn off your cell phones and other electronic devices.  Disconnect yourself from all the gadgetry that supposedly is supposed to give us all more ‘time’.  Take a breath, and then another one.  Keep breathing, your doing so anyways – you might as well tune in and do it consciously.  Notice how shallow or deep it is.  Notice how you can change your breathing with very little effort.  Feel your body and notice everything around you.  The sounds around you, the surface you are on, the floor beneath you.  Expand out into the space surrounding you.  Can you sense those around you!  Expand out even further, touching all corners of the world, sending blessings and love to mother earth, thanking her for all her gifts.  Gifts created for our pleasure.  Trees and forests, mountains and valleys, specks of flowers so delicate, nature at its finest, enjoy it all as you open your eyes and hearts to all that surrounds you, envelopes you, nurtures you.  And while you’re at it, you may want to take a ‘day of rest’ from your daily routines and have a completely different day.  Give yourself permission to just be, take a vacation from all your doing.  Be prepared, you may be busy as you tap into the flow of divine order. 
    

Smile, and the world smiles with you, in love and peace.  Remember and breathe in the goodness of who you truly are. 

Nov 1, 2011

A FAMILIAR STORY

We pulled into the right hand curb lane behind a car half blocking the driveway of the church parking lot.  The passenger getting out of the car ahead of us was a young handicapped man, we assumed was the son of the mother who got out of the drivers seat to go around to shut the passenger door.  As she walked back around the back of the car, she stopped and looked in the direction her son had walked.  She smiled and waved glowing with love.  It was a touching moment as we witnessed this precious expression. 

By now, there were 2 buses in the middle lane.  The bus driver opened her door to talk to us...  She told us we were in a bus stop zone.  We told her that we were waiting to turn into the driveway.  She told us to honk our horn at the car ahead which was now hemmed in with no place to go.  We tried to explain that there was a handicapped man that got out of the car.  By now the car ahead of us was able to head off and we were able to pull into the driveway.  The bus motored on.  A moment in time viewed differently.

We realized that as well as the bus driver not having the full picture, we too had no idea of her day - perhaps she had just dealt with a difficult passenger or had stuff going on in her life or....  And then there is the mother and her son.... 

  

MEDITATION SPRINGING FORTH

Tuesday, Oct 11, 2011

My cage was rattled.  What to do?  The usual - procrastinate, ignore, delay, postpone...  Eat something.  Notice the need for comfort food.  Make some microwave popcorn.  Eat it.  Drink a coffee (don't usually).  Eat a chocolate.  Watch TV.  Making choices all.  Finally I chose to go sit quietly, meditate on 'it'.  I could ask questions, do kinesiology, but don't.  Then I get, journal 'it', so I get my journal notebook and pen.  Eight pages later, the words turned into this Meditation.

I ask the questions (kinesiology).  Can I tell J?  Should I tell J?  Is it a good idea to tell J?  Will she understand?  Do I need to tell J?  Should I talk her into going Saturday?  Answers were all 'YES'  So I made the phone call and what a wonderful healing Ah ha moments filled honest exchange that was so well received.  Finally I had been fully understood, how refreshing.  I felt cleansed.  Had a shower.  Writing this.

At the end of the journalling process came these words.  Enjoy.

I am strong.  I am powerful.  I am all knowing.  I am love.  I am loving.  I am loved.  I am valuable, important.  A part of the plan that fits and is needed.  I do make a difference.  I do matter just as I am.  Perfect in everyway in each and every moment even if I forget I swing from this vine called life.  I write from above through my precious heart called Love.  I have a million stories to tell that sparkle like lanterns lighting my way.  Building blocks all, in my pathway to heaven - this now and present moment.  This moment that matters.  As we bless our time here together by blessing ourselves and our journey on the movie screen called life.

Take a moment to conjure up all the love you can bring in.  Imagine yourself surrounded by all your delightful, delicious moments.  Moments filled with love.  A favorite pet, a favorite doll or stuffed animal, a toy, your blankie, a friend or loved one, teacher, car, home, garden, nature....  Fill yourself with love.  Invoke the sense of peace and wellness.  Ask for this energy to flow through you expanding out into the room, the building, the community, the world and beyond.  See the healing powers nurturing mother earth.  Know that you are One with all.  You matter.  You are connected.  You are beautiful.  Expanding your light matters.  Nowhere to go, nothing to 'do'.  Just 'BE'.  Show up just as you are.  You are okay.  A piece of the puzzle, unique and different.  No one quite like you in all the world.  The world would be a different place without you.  As you continue to walk in the shoes you were meant to fill, know that you are exactly where you are meant to be in this moment and every moment.  There are no accidents.

And from that place of loving acceptance, give thanks to yourself and to the role you play in this show we call life.  Amen.

MY RETURN TO UNITY

Oct 9, 2011
LEGEND
- use of [   ] = things I notice writing this.  The coincidences... the Ah Ha's...


History first.  I first arrived at Unity on Mothers Day 1991.  I had left a 13 year common law relationship and was living in a Transition House.  [church going through transition / transition team.  I have come full circle]  My 1st experience was one of feeling like 'I had come home'.  Other stories here for another time.

There were many 'coincidences' God wink miracles.  More stories for other times.  Like meeting my husband Ralph here at Unity of Vancouver.  For the moment let's just say that God was at work in our lives.

Fast forward.  Returning from our yearly RV camping trip down south about 4 - 5 years ago, for some reason we just never got back into attending Unity or going to the Richmond Malls daily Tai Chi exercise group weekday mornings.  Two activities that we cherish.  And I loved Katherine Anderson and what she had to offer.  [I think I was disappointed that others didn't get the "it factor" that I saw in her]

We did go to Unity churches while traveling and did attend Vancouvers Candle Lighting Christmas services and the Easter Good Friday's.  Last year I spent 3 months in and out of hospital.  I am involved in a large community of friends that do energy healing and received many blessings and lots of support during this time (and before and since and always)  Here in Richmond we have 7 community centres that run monthly Seniors Wellness Clinics that include Holistic Practitioner sessions for a suggested $10 donation for 1/2 hour.  My niche in the healing community seems to be 'supporting and healing the healers', a community that needs their wounds healed.  But I degress...

Back to the beginning of last December, Ralph said "seeing as we will be going to the Candle Lighting service we might as well start going back to Unity"  So we did.

And what did we find!  Perfect timing, a perfect fit for where I was at personally.  A church needing healing, healing, parellelling my journey.  A school walking with me, beside me, leading the way.  So many wonderful stories here...  WOW, thank you for rekindling the memories and invoking the feelings.

Fast forward to your weekend with us.  There were many stepping stones leading the way in my life.  Meeting Judith who reminded me to use kinesiology to get answers to questions. (more stories)

I was so excited with the possibility that the 2 of you would be our new ministers.  My dream is to create a center of healing for the healers and the children.  Somewhere that would support and encourage the gifts that children come into the world with instead of brainwashing them into 'not knowing' anymore.  A place that manifests the miracles, the foundation of the Unity Charles and Myrtle created, manifested.

So imagine my surprise when I got the 'hit' (and it did feel like I had been punched in the stomache)
" they are not the ones".  I was disappointed.

THANK YOU God.  Over the next few days, I was led to ask the question using Kinesiology.  It was true.  I then had the thought to ask, "Is there anything I can do to change this"  Answer - YES.

Fast Forwarding to last Sunday at the fireside chat and the question posed,  "What am I going to do to prepare for your arrival?"   The Transition Teams process was eye opening and healing and motivated me to Be Bigger (Catherines message at the Sunday Service - another coincidence)  I approached Jean-Pierre at the end of the gathering and told him I would like to help him with his Wed. night Meditation idea.  It has been quite a week (seems like it has been a month or more).  We had our 1st Meditation Night last Wed.  Jean-Pierre is not available next Wed. so I get to facilitate.  The ideas are flowing, being created and manifesting.  I hope that the board has shared some of the emails with you.

Back at home, I was drawn to do a 'personal inventory' (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual) to continue doing my personal healing work.

It has been an amazing journey of being in a divine flow. 

JOURNALLING IDEA - Cd/tape titles

Hi there
I have been playing with the idea of listing the titles of all my tapes and Cd's in story form to see what develops and perhaps see a theme revealed. So here goes. Randomly selected. Opening to trusting the universal lessons. As I operate from this motiving idea now manifesting, I choose to randomly listen to my tapes.

The story begins... from my library to you.
Chapter 1 - CD's
Healing waterfall lullabye healling waterfall heartmindfullness blossums over the bridge the cloak and the dove self affirmations let the music in overcoming lifes stesses and strains sunset sunrise mousska and ripple infinite love the lords prayer tapping summit in the spirit of healing solitudes nature soulfood desert spa native spirit alpha heavenly revelations the mystic dance daintree magic timeless motion sunset sunrise angel sleep awakenings tranquility sunset sunrise focus relax peace the celestine prophecy path of healing heartmindfullness moussaka and ripple lullabye kalamalka colors heartmindfullness tools for life over coming lifes stresses and strains mindfulness meditation body and soul inner peace mousaka and ripple the cloak and the dove heartmindfulness lullabye wherever you go there you are tools for life i know why the caged bird sings i know why the caged bird sings i know why the caged bird sings spirit lifting thoughts for you for quiet mind and peaceful heart where you go there you are life is short wear your party pants tools of life tools of life praises for the world tt handbook ten minutes to relax chant ectasy shamanic dream angels touch music for the heart chakra meditations for manifesting dream child chant stillness wherever you go there you are hand painted sky musical soul portraits selfesteem affirmations selfesteem affirmations interior design the children and the dolphins circles upon circles meditation children for Chemotherapy guided imagery meditation to ease grief cope with cancer dream child essential rhythms for personal empowerment the celestine prophecy a musical voyage stress management dear jazz womens health in midlife native wisdom rhythms of the chakras coming for you sound of love and light shamanic experience drumming healing session dream child interior design the portal faith brain sync spirit flutes gregorian chants chakras dream natures sounds natures touch tibetan moods the serenity series inner peace deep breathing interior design for healing and pain relief northern lights reflexology music soulfood breakfast in bed piano reflections timeless motion quiet concentration classical relaxation classical relaxation body and soul balance for you life moving through depression atlantis healing temple yearning solitudes favorite selections yin music essential sunset sunrise in the spirit of healing blossoms over the bridge

Chapter 2 - Tapes
more to come

MEMORABLE MOMENTS

There have been moments in time that have shifted my life's earthly journey.

Interesting - an aside here, I noticed that I first spelled 'early' which probably works well in this story line also.

Today I shared some of those wonderful moments with a group of people and since then other moments have come to my mind that I wish to share with others. So here I am, taking inventory and documenting the tools and techniques stored in my personal tool box. Things I have heard, seen, experienced over the years that I have adopted into my world because they resonated with my being and touched my heart.

Wow, the ideas are flooding in. Where do I start! Here goes.

- life is like a tea bag. The longer it is in hot water, the stronger it gets.
- physically take a step to the side to get out of your way when the going gets tough.
- pick your battles.
- you can hate what someone is doing, and still love the person.
- trust the bigger picture.
- "Mmmh, that's interesting", ask "I wonder what that is about" and then let the moment go.
- 95 % of the work is waking up and becoming aware. The choices are easier then.
- take 10 deep breaths.
- smile, it changes your chemistry.
- trust that others are capable of living their own lives.
- my job is to plant the seed. The seed won't do well if I go to the garden and dig it up every day to see how it is doing. It will blossom in its own time.
- Let go and let God.
- Love thy neighbour as you love yourself. Key is to work on yourself, for only when you accept and learn to truly love yourself, will you be able to truly love and accept others.
- the only person you can change is yourself.
- commune with nature.
- KISS principle. Keep it simple.
- take time to smell the flowers.
- see snags and irritations as a mirror reflection of your own self that wants healing.
- Gemini principle > polish the GEM in I.
- I see what I see in others only because I possess the same qualities. This goes for things I do not like as well as things I admire.
- Forgive, for your own sake. And remember to forgive yourself too.
- if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.
- let go of judging.
- let go of outcome.
- let go of expectations.
- I can learn life's lessons through JOY.
- Why keep doing the same thing, expecting a different outcome?
- laugh at myself - whoops, there I go again. Sure learned how to do that well.
- who's truth is it? Church, society, family, ... ??? Do I want it as MY truth?
- listen. I become a much better listener when I chose to let go of controlling.
- I think about how I would feel if someone was trying to make me do something.
- you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink.
- everything happens for a reason. Trust and have faith in the bigger picture.
- let others learn from their own mistakes.
- have healthy interdependent relationships rather than unhealthy codependent ones.
- change yourself and things around you change.
- laugh at yourself. Lighten up on yourself.
- let yourself off the hook.
- be kind to yourself. Treat yourself like you would like others to treat you. Treat yourself like you treat others.
- polish the GEM's In You.
- like yourself.
- love yourself.
- treat yourself to something nice. Do something nice for yourself. Make a date with yourself.
- learn new things everyday.
- journal.
- create.
- meditate.
- breath.
- stretch.
- move.
- ask for help.
- connect with others.
- say your sorry.
- nurture your soul.
- spring clean inside and out.
- accept yourself just as you are in each and every moment.
- place yourself in their shoes.
- live in the moment.
- inspire and be inspired.
- be still.
- stop 'doing' and start 'being', after all, we are human 'being's.
- plant seeds.
- never stop growing.
- water your own seed so you flourish into the beautiful blossom that you are meant to be.
- read books.
- garbage in, garbage out. Choose wisely.
- stop reading the newspapers and listening to the news.
- send positive thoughts and energy to those that need it.
- the flap of a butterflies wing changes the world. Wave your hand and know that you make a difference.
- think love, send love, breath peace, be love.
- your thoughts are things.
- think peace, send peace, breath peace, be peace.
- if you can't send love thoughts, start with sending peace thoughts.
- be grateful, give thanks.
- be creative.
- sabotage the sabotaging.
- If I need to hear about something, I will get the information.
- open your eyes, ears and heart.
- find and see the beauty in all things
- view the world from different perspectives, angles, all sides, both sides of the coin, from above and below, eagle flying high in the sky view (things look smaller)
- technique > pick a thought > place it in your stomache and just notice how it feels, then move it up to heart space and just notice how it feels, then throat area and on up to forehead area. NOW move it up to above your head 10 - 15 inches. Compare how that feels. You will be amazed, as I was.
- observe nature.
- wake up to this moment, and this moment, and this moment.
- the past is gone, the future is not here, all we have is this moment - that's why they call it the 'present'
- enjoy the 'present'
- see with childs eyes, hear with childs ears, feel with childs touch, explore things like it is the first time you are experiencing them.
- learn from kids. They know how to live. They know how to forgive and forget.
- model childrens actions. Let go and move on.
- PLAY.
- LAUGH, and laugh often for no reason at all.
- cancel cancel, love love (when I catch my thoughts)

MY PERSONAL CREDO

I believe in other realms of existence.

I believe in the power of being connected to a higher power, a bigger picture.

I believe in singing my praises (being grateful).

I believe in the power of love.

I believe that I am always in the right place at the right time no matter what it may look like.

I believe in the power of thoughts. Therefore I believe I choose my reality.

SINGING MY SONGS

So I was randomly reading through some of my old journals and came across an entry from 2004 that was written on a camping trip. I awoke one morning with 2 lines of a song lyrics in my head. I spoke the words out loud to my husband and wrote them down in the journal. Over the next few days, more possible lyrics and an idea for the music video came to me. All recorded in my journal.

So I typed it all out on the computer thinking that I would give it to one of the musicians at church. I also added the "in the light" idea that I have been singing for the last year or more. A few days ago, the next 2 lines came to me out of the blue. Then I started singing the next verse idea....

Coincidently, this Sundays musician sang a song about 'light'. I talked to him after the service and showed him my ideas. Yes, he writes songs / music and he was excited about what I showed him. What a perfect connection. Bless him.

HEALING MOMENT

Sitting here in the moment feeling the "sock in the stomache" blow of the Ah Ha healing that the Universe just created / co created with me.

I was following through on a thought I had this morning, to write an email to a friend - sending her a random quote from one of my journals. Trusting the universe to provide comforting words of wisdom. It was an amazing process of realizing that I did not 'trust', that I was trying to control. So I sat back and just listened and the magic continued.

After many 'aside' messages, I finally opened up the journal to a random page and let my 'eyes' :>) randomly chose a place to start reading. It turned out to be affirmations from a Louise Hayes book, I Love My Body.

Day 3: I Love My Eyes. I have perfect vision. I see clearly in every direction. I see with love my past, my present and my future. My mind chooses the way I look at life. I see with new eyes. I see the good in everyone and everywhere. I now lovingly create the life I love to look at. I love and appreciate my eyes.

Email sent, I decided to turn back a couple of the pages to read - Day 1: I Love My Mind Day 2: I Love My Hair Then Day 4, where the healing occurred.

Day 4: I Love My Ears: I am balanced and poised and one with all of life. I choose the thoughts that create harmony around me. I listen with love to the good and the pleasant. I hear the cry for love that is hidden in everyones message. I am willing to understand others and I have compassion for them. I rejoice in my ability to hear life. I have a receptive capacity of mind. I am willing to hear. I love and appreciate my beautiful ears.

It hit me that I fall short here. Don't live up to these words. Shifted into living these words. Amen.

P.S. Ahhh!!! I have noticed reduced hearing in my left ear and wanting to undo that. Also,,, my eyes too!

THOUGHTS FOR TODAY, placemat exercise

The thought I had was to write out this Thoughts for Today placemat that I have kept, never looking at it until a couple of days ago when we started sifting through all our photo's / decluttering, throwing out duplicates and others, sorting, organizing, putting some into the 'empty' albums that have been waiting for years to be used.

So here it is! Thank you for the opportunity to play and DO the action step to the thought step. I will write it in story form to see what emerges.

There is a destiny that makes us brothers; none goes his way alone: all that we send into the lives of others comes back into our own. I care not what his temples or his creeds, one thing holds firm and fast - that unto his fateful heap of days and deeds the soul of man is cast. We cannot reach new horizons if we fear to leave the shore. (wrote 'shoe' here which could fit too heehee) If you talk with crowds and keep your virtue or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch; if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; if all men count with you, but none too much; if you can fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds' worth of distance run - yours is the earth and everything that's in it, and - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son! To touch the cup with eager lips and taste, not drain it; to woo and tempt and court a bliss - and not attain it; to fondle and caress a joy, yet hold it lightly, lest it become necessity and cling too tightly; to watch the sun set in the west without regretting; to hail its advent in the east - the night forgetting; to smother care in happiness and grief in laughter; to hold the present close - not questioning hereafter; to have enough to share - to know the joy of giving; to thrill with all the sweets of life - is living. Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. If you hear a song that thrills you, sung by any child of song, praise it. Do not let the singer wait deserved praises long. Why should one who thrills your heart lack the joy you may impart? He who knows not and knows not that he knows not, is a fool, shun him; he who knows not, and knows that he knows not, is a child, teach him. He who knows, and knows not that he knows, is asleep, wake him. He who knows, and knows that he knows, is wise, follow him.

Well that was interesting.... I was going to stop and delete, then thought - no finish and then delete.... Then thought, send it to myself, no need to burden others with it.... then thought (who knows in which order the thoughts came and went) NO - send it, something that doesn't mean anything to you (meaning me) might mean something to someone else. Maybe it is meant for you, maybe not - but let them make that decision, don't decide for them.... Then re read it to correct mistakes, gad it was confusing writing all those 'he who knows and...' Even wondered writing it, why I had kept the paper placemat in the first place. I even wrote the 7 Thoughts for Today, out of order as I was drawn too - curious as to what the story would reveal. Now I am thinking to re write again and again in varying different orders to see what transpires.... Or maybe just read them.... Or I could copy and paste... What is going on here.... Geez

Just re read again, getting more out of it each time.

Enjoy.

P.S. >>> I was just re reading the placemat and read the 2nd paragraph of one of them mixing up the order within each one. Then thought, I could take each sentence separately (or parts of each sentence even) playing with the order of reading or writing these words. Why I wonder... Hee hee!!!

DIAPHRAGMATIC BREATHING GOAL

AH HA moment that had me LAUGHING OUT LOUD this morning.

One of my Later Life Cognitive Base Group (L.L.) goals this week was to re read the paperwork on Diaphragmatic breathing technique and to practice doing it for 10 breaths each morning. I kept losing count, never knowing how many I did. My thought earlier this week was that it would work better if this was done for a set number of minutes instead. I could even set a timer.

This morning, as I was bent on keeping track of how many breaths I was doing, I was having a conversation in my head with the group - formulating just the right words to explain this experience. (God, it takes a lot of words to set the scene to explain a simple AhHa moment I caught on the "tape" of my mind.) So I am laying down doing the breathing having a 'mental' conversation (:>) here at how diverse and multi meaning the word mental is) Conversation in my head to formulate just the right words to clearly and concisely articulate succinctly what I want the group to hear OR also mental meaning crazy and so forth.

I had noticed over the week that I would lose track of the count.. Never knew how many breaths I breathed. (:>) - just know I was breathing still because I was still here -AH HA - what a wonderful way to describe death, dieing, dead, - as not being here anymore. Wonder if that's what people meant when they used the word "gone")

Back to breathing. I had the thought early on in the week (week being Tues - Tues) that it would be better to do breathing for a set number of minutes, could set a timer. Eliminate the struggle of trying to count.

Thought I had today, Tues, was that I could have changed 'it' - (the goal) DAH!!!
So simple that it is complex. Silly me laughing out loud at myself, proud that I am "waking up".

DREAMSCAPES

A couple of weeks ago, I set the intention to remember my dreams. At first I noticed nothing. As the days wore on, I was just aware that I felt like I was struggling, but didn't remember what it was about. No dream details surfaced. So then I set the intention to remember and record my dreams. Still nothing but a waking up feeling like I had been working hard, with nothing to report. Then this morning, I was aware that I was part of a work team blasting away at a precarious rock face hanging above a roadway. Bit by bit we blasted away the foundation that we were standing on, which was precariously crumbling before our eyes. We were clearing the way to safety. Cleaning away the old to pave the way for a new foundation, a new path, a clear roadway to follow. Thank you Lord.

PATTERNS

As I was journalling, pen in hand on paper, I noticed a pattern. So here I am to let loose and explore the reoccuring patterns of my life.

The one I became aware of was the connection of the Unity church and the hospital stays. I was journalling about the Relaxation Circle and the role it has played in my life and the role I have played in its life. Same with the Wellness Clinic programs. Noticing how I choose to not use these helpful programs when I need it most. Waiting until I feel better... instead of being helped by the program to feel better. Then a 1991 memory of meeting Pete and Freddie in the lane when I was out of hospital for the day, and how wonderfully excited Freddie was to see me. I felt so special. Then I realized that we are again back at Unity. A similiar pattern repeating itself in this 2011 present moment. So I thought. Why not journal and examine "patterns" of my life. What a wonderful workshop idea. What a wonderful idea to examine for the church - looking at its reoccuring patterns may reveal answers. Lead us to what we are meant to do as a church community.

So why am I speechless here at the moment. What am I not wanting to look at yet? My mind has shut down and gone blank. So many memories, where do I start? Why bother?

Ah!!! Typing word 'bother' twigged a thought about my brother. Now I am noticing that I am resisting. Glad that my Hidden Object game is loaded. An excuse to leave this and go play. Take a breather.



A journalling technique I just heard about, says to leave a space if you have not journalled for awhile. So is an hour or 2 "awhile" or is "awhile" mean days, weeks, months, years. Notice how I am creating a diversion here. Skirting the issue at hand. Resisting the healing that is so close to surfacing. Resisting the emotions involved. Resisting the pain and hurt. Oh God, forgive me for I know not what I do - did. I would like to think that I would do different now that I know more. Why was I spared the torment that my brother went through. Why didn't I drive him to the hospital that night. Why did he have to depend on a stranger to pick him up and take him there. Why didn't whhy didn't, why didn't. Why do I beat myself up so for something I can not change. I can not relive the moment. Ah! use the /_\ idea to journal this.

Feelings / Thoughts / Behavior
I feel bad. I could have been there for him. Helped him. But he was doing so many stupid things. He embarrassed me. Put my job in jeopardy. Involved my friends daughter in the stupidity. Disappointed me so. He was not someone I was proud of. He did not live up to my expectations AHHH! KEY* Do we ever live up to someone elses expectations? Do I? Is that what holds me back still today? Not even trying. So tired of trying to live up to others expectations, I don't even bother to try anymore. Or did I ever try to. A pattern I learned again and again early on in my life. Vacuuming wasn't good enough. Rotten messages again again. So how do I get past all this? What do I do now?

I don't remember dreaming last night ( I made the intent to ) but I do remember thinking of Judith when I was waking up. Does that count?

I want to remember tonights dreams. I want to find answers to all these questions that I ponder over.

Thoughts! I wasn't a very good sister. I was a failure. He wasn't a very good brother. He was a failure too. Neither one of us were good enough. I was jealous of him and his carefree life. Seemed to have no fear. Which looked like stupidity to me at times. Me, I was such a scaredy cat - no guts, too cautious. I wished I was more like him. Flooding with peace and love here now in this moment. A releasing healing moment.

Behavior! I didn't help him when I could have. I harboured anger and resentment unnessarily. I let things ride and let time heal (?) the wounds. LOL - wounds I still feel in this moment, so I guess the scabs of time just hide the wounds of the wounded. I am remembering here that others don't have the power to wound me, it is my responsibility to allow or not allow the wounding.

My thoughts have stopped. The healing continues. Love and peace all.

DEEPENING OUR SELF-INTIMACY

I am reading a works called Internal Affairs A Journalkeeping Workbook for Self-Intimacy by Kay Leigh Hagan. Among other things, she talks about becoming familiar with our memories - their selectivity, biases, embellishments, and symbolism - to enable us to deepen our self-intimacy, to avoid illusion and denial, and to make more empowering decisions. But the 'trust' we need to share our memories freely in a relationship must be present in our self-intimacy as well.

I recognize that I have fears around journalling freely - safety issues stemming from past trauma's of being violated and embarrassed as a child. I hold back just in case. Living in that world of 'what if' someone read my words and misunderstood me, was hurt by me. What if they thought that my words painted an accurate picture of who I was, what I felt. When for me, journalling is a lot about fiction that develops into those delightful gems of ah ha moments. A clearing of the way for the 'stuff' beneath the surface to perculate up and be presented to the conscious self. Stories from my perspective of my memories - true or false. Long lost stored up energy particles waiting to be released or 'stuff' from the present moment that I choose to release and let go of instead of storing it away in my cellular make up.

So I am careful, automatically censoring - holding back, just in case. Reading 'A censor can become a sensor as soon as I decide to probe past the guard at the door' makes me crave more. Determined to probe deep into the mine of blocks that holds me back. Determined to breath through the fear that protects me, yet holds me back from revealing the vast store-house of information to myself. I will take the opportunity to 're-view' it.

I had never looked at the issue of 'trust' before. Although I don't trust others, my mom especially, to respect my privacy by not reading my journals (noticing that I am sugar coating my words here - when I really mean just my mom. My dream is that others will read and find gems, nuggets of inspiration from my words. That there will be 'foot prints' in the sand for others to follow)

Trust. I need to trust myself too. Is this lack of trusting myself tied into fear of succeeding, I wonder. Am I afraid of my power. What if.... Ahhh!!! What if I leave everyone else behind. What if they don't keep up with my growth pattern. Could I be patient, let go of the frustration, letting them be them without trying to change them!

The realm of trust encompasses a vast array of nuggets to be uncovered.

Kay Leigh (hey, that's Ralphs daughters middle name too - what are the odds, what are the odds that I would finally notice that too. LOL)

As I was saying before I interrupted myself with an example of what I mean about the process of journalling bringing to light the gifts that give us pause, an awe moment wondering about the universe, Kay Leigh talks about information nudging its way to the surface, past the censors, though her 'dreams', journalling gave her a chance to re-view the memories. I will open up to remembering and recording my dreams as part of the journalling process. Another connection I had not thought of - dreams being another way of journalling.

A precious awareness opening up new worlds of possibilities. Shattering the old box I was trapped in, creating new space - more space, to grow and flourish in. Dear God, please fertilize me... Laughing here, cause I had the thought -'what if' all the crap from the past is just that - the fertilizer that sprouts our seeds and allows us to flourish into the beautiful blossums of the universe. :>)

Good Night all.

NOT WANTING TO DO ANYTHING BLOG

hI THERE
I am listening to a pod cast from the Unity of Vancouver website. Trying anything to connect to that flow I so want to be flowing through me. Connected, grounded. Securely and lovingly. Wanting answers to questions not yet formulated. Thoughts grinding to a halt. A wanting yearning churning within me. Struggling to unlease itself and get out. But get out of where. What binds me. Searching to uncover what? Needing what? Where do I start? Where does it end? Ah! I am trying to control, instead of being and trusting in Gods time, being in Gods hands. Ah! Pod cast just reminded me that it is not that I need God, it is that God needs us. A different perspective. A view from above. A different understanding. A stepping into the flow.

So now I am here, where do I want to go? What decisions do I get to make? Do I or do I not want to:
- continue with the weekly appointments
- get back to helping to facilitate the relaxation group again
- continue on with the Wellness Clinic's
- start something new
- workshops
- story writing
- relaxation
- healing
- play
- sharing
- EFT
- TT etc.
- journalling
- art therapy
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- travel
- camping
- TT campsites
- explore BC (Laird Hot Springs)
- Lower mainland
- cruising
- 25 year pass
- Volunteer
- church

Is blogging a type of volunteering. Sharing what I know and think with the hope of helping others. "needs us" is the word that jumps out of the pod cast that I am listening to... I so need to be needed.

I wonder what my destiny is, my lifes purpose. What am I supposed to be doing? How am I supposed to be doing it? I need guidance. I want guidance... I crave guidance... Slip me into my paths purpose. What have I done wrong, when I have a sickness, broken bones, a wrong doing... of some sort. When I am not perfect. When I do something wrong. I love this process. Feeling stupid and dumb, and not worthwhile. i love the imperfection of perfection. what a relief. An unloading of whats to come. words flowing without editing , strange words, utterly no meaning to discern. no ah ha's yet profound. Loving and generous. Moving on. Moving on to what? Needing to move on. What am I waiting for. Mom to die, so I don't get embarrassed trying to explain myself. Doors that need to be closed - the church lesson of today.

Doors to close
- struggle with mom relationship
- forgiveness to myself for the whole list of people plus
/_\ journal idea - there is no accident that we encounter the people that we do. What gift has each person given to my life / what gift have they received from me?



Heard someone suggest recently, that when you don't journal for awhile - to leave a space to show that. So hear I am, leaving a space in this blog because it has been a few hours - guess it is just me getting stuck. Not knowing what to do. And there is so much to do.

I have to have my homework goals completed for Tuesday and I am not getting around to it yet. There is housework and laundry and emails to respond to and decisions to make. Ah, I had better answer M's email. Maybe that will make me feel better.



Well, I got 1 email answered... and somehow lost all the tasks bars and am ticked off at myself and my lack of computer knowledge... Which F button did I click on by mistake, how do I undo - now grrrr this site is saying auto save failed and so this may all get lost too!!! What a groaner. I was hoping to feel better and I get more challenges instead. Lots of laughs - just shaking my head and smiling here, what more can I do. I am trusting that this may have not meant to be and the universe is taking good care of me. Blog blog blog. so I will post and see what happens. Take care and good night all.

CONTEMPLATING THOSE "what if" LIFE MOMENTS

Have you ever contemplated those amazing moments in life when you were in the right place at the right time. Moments that blazed new trails in your lifes journey. Lets start by listing memorable moments in time that may have been put on the back shelf, moments that helped shape your life.

My moments that come to mind in this now moment are:

- my brothers name being Gerry Keeling which was the name of the quarterback for the Calgary Stampeders football team back when we were young teenagers. The phone rings and asks for Gerry Keeling. My girlfriend and I had somehow cornered my brother in the closet and were holding the door shut on him. So I said, he is locked in the closet at the moment and took a name and number for Gerry to call back once we let him out of the closet. This memory has me wondering in this moment if my brother ever suffered from fears of the dark or small places because of this. Any ways, turned out the guy was looking for the football player.... LOL This phone call led to many more - to me though, not my brother. Turned out to be a teen my age. We had many wonderful conversations about WHY salt was called salt and not pepper. He told me to ask the question HOW instead. This got me through much of the turmoil of the day. What was his name... He eventually came to visit me. That is another story in itself. I reacted poorly when I saw him - only because it was an unexpected surprise to find out that he was black. We drifted apart after that episode. I felt foolish and embarrassed because he had told me to ask a friend of his that went to my school about him. All the guy said was that he had black curly hair. I felt used. I can't imagine how the guy felt. I hope it didn't affect him and his life.

- then there was the time in Quesnel when I was looking for a job. I applied at the drug store and got the job, not realizing that a position had become available. I had beat the crowd that was soon to appear.

- I often tell others the stories of asking for a parking space. One day, I arrived at my destination and had to go around the block 3 times before I found a parking space. As I went into the medical building, there in the elevator was the doctor that I had wanted to magically run into to give him some paperwork. AHHHhh! I was too early was I, thank you universe.

- Then there was the experience of stretching time. I was visiting with another practitioner. We did healing sessions on each other and then had lunch. From her place we were catching the bus to go to the Mask Making workshop together. We left late, then missed a bus. We chose to ask the universe to stretch time. We continued merrily on our way, getting to our destination early. We have no idea how we made it, it logically seemed impossible.

- When I was residing at a Transition (Safe) House, I drove back from a Unity Church where the Sunday service had been directed directly at me it seemed, and each song on the radio was powerful healing and had me shedding my tears. I felt renewed and cleansed. I remember deciding to listen to one more song when I had arrived at my destination - the magic was over, that next song had nothing to do with anything.

- My most favorite volunteer work was at the Hospital Emergency Room. It did not matter if I visited one patient or saw everyone during my shift. I was free to follow my intition, to follow my NOSE, and let it lead me to be in the right place at the right moment. I had many wonderful experiences of allowing myself to get in touch / be in the moment / listen to that universal nudge. I would come to a fork in the road (the end of the hall with the choice to go right or left) and would have the urge to turn one way and someone would be having blood drawn, and I would go and hold their hand and distract them. I had many wonderful healing conversations with strangers that crossed my path. Ships in the night that shaped my life, touched my heart.

- A magical experience at the Unity Church (and there are many, some unfolding in this now moment) I was going to a Wed. night meeting from work. I started out being early and ended up being late. Driving there I was thinking that I would like to get some nutritional information and start eating better. When I arrived the doors were closed and I decided to go for a walk instead. On the stairs, I ran into a friend and got one of his great 'hugs'. On the way back up the stairs, I told the lady coming down that we were too late and that I was going to go for a walk. She invited herself to come with me. She introduced herself and guess what, she worked in the nutrition field. I was 'in the flow'. I was in the right place at the right moment - super tuned into Universe. Then I said to myself - whoa, this is too much, and everything stopped. The experience was over. The universe gave me what I asked for. I strived for years to tune in again. To find and ride that stream again. I have achieved moments since, but nothing like that feeling again.

- I met Ralph at that Unity Church. One day the minister was talking about making a list of things you would like to do. Then, dah!!!, go out and do them. I had a thought when getting up after the service - 'you've seen that guy a few times, you should say 'hi''. Then downstairs at coffee gathering afterwards, he came and stood right next to my chair. So I jumped up and said, "a little voice said to me....." He left a few minutes later. When Wendy and I were leaving, we saw Ralph getting on a motorcycle. I went over and said, a motorcycle ride would be on my list of things to do. One thing lead to other, I eventually got my motorcycle ride and we have been together ever since. GOD / Universe, was definitely in control - there was no stopping the process.

There are hundreds more of these historical moments, I just can't think of any in the moment. I hope this sparks your memories and would be 'tickled pink' if you cared to share some with me.
Love and Lightening Up on Myself
Peace and Goodwill All

Later Life Group and Bach Flower Journal

Greetings

I will start with a chronological account of events and then will use this space to journal into healings.

Back in Nov 2010, I attended a group orientation session and then a one on one intake meeting with a counselor for the local mental health program to decide which of the various group programs I would best fit into. Then it was 'sit back and wait' - 3 to 6 months, depending on which group.

During this wait time, at the end of Jan, 2011, the Mindful Meditation Cognitive Base 8 week group being held at the offices of a drug and alcohol abuse program was offered to me. I discovered other free drop-in group programs also offered at this location and attended the ear acupuncture, art therapy, nutrition, women's group, Yoga, food and mood and others. I benefitted from these daily sessions that were just as relevant to me as a non client. Alas, when the Mindful Meditation Group finished I was told that it was also the end of my being able to participate in the other programs. Back to 'waiting' mode.

Fast forward to May, 2011, the wait is over - well sort of, in one way anyways. The Later in Life Group Therapy session starts, after being postponed a week. The first introductory session lays out the program. 17 weeks of 2 hour sessions, at 1 -3, on both Mondays and Tuesdays, geez - that runs us into mid Sept. given a number of holiday Mondays. I notice how I am ticked off, so ask about also doing one of the other group programs at the same time - anything to make it more worth while being tied down for the summer months. No satisfaction offered. I am considering dumping the group...

Hence the journalling. Am I resisting? What am I resisting?? Feeling stuck, looking for a way out - some way to get some of my control back... So much for the 1st Monday session.

Then comes Tuesdays session. I started the day with a consultation appointment with a Holistic Practitioner in a neighboring community which took until 12:30. It is a good 1/2 drive back. After stopping at the Seniors Centre for a pee and to pick my husband up so he could drop me off at the hospital - you guessed it... I was about 20 minutes late. Now, was that me trying to control - they had stressed attendance and punctuality, asking us to phone and let them know if we were going to be late.

I chose to be in the moment at my healing appointment, not wanting to cut it short or short change myself. I chose me first for a change. Trusting the bigger picture, knowing that the Universe had a purpose. I trusted that I would arrive at the group at the right time, GODS time - not our man made time. Turned out that the others - 8 of them, were interviewing each other. (even number for 1 on 1) :>) Then we went around with each of them introducing each other to the rest of us. All I had to do was introduce myself answering their 3 questions.
1. Where was I born and raised?
2. What is my favorite food?
3. What do I want to get out of the group?
Thank you Universe, I hadn't missed anything.

So, back to the Monday / Tuesday schedule. Two Mondays a month have Wellness Clinics I like to participate in, in the mornings. Then there is a couple of morning exercise groups at the Seniors Centre on the way to the Hospital location that I would like to go to. Tuesdays there's also other exercise groups at the Seniors Ctr., or I could play Texas Hold Em poker from 11 - 12:30ish on the way to the 1 P.M. group. Breaks the walk up, gets me exercising and saves me parking costs too!

Oh, Tuesdays group... part of the session was about making SMART goals. We all wrote out and shared a goal that we would do for this week. (I learned lots from the process, but probably not what the facilitator would expect) She had used my goal of doing laundry (original question was "What could you do this week that would make you happy?" or something along that line... She refined my doing laundry into more specific terms... How many loads. Wash / dry / fold / hang / put away / WHEN - I said after lunch Wed. with friends (which some of us do after a Wellness Clinic) She said what time 2 ? 3? I said 3 p.m. A few minutes later she referred back to my example and said something about "how I would be checking the time and hurrying everyone at lunch cause I had to do laundry at 3... My internal unspoken reaction was "nope, never, wouldn't do that - I am happiest being in the moment, in the flow, in the right place at the right time, etc.. etc...
So I changed my goal to doing laundry Thurs. morning. Well, ended up doing laundry Tues when I got home - mostly cause I was in the mood and just in case something else came up Thurs morning... Which left me free to go to the Seniors Ctr for the Joint Works exercise class at 10 Thursday morning and then play Texas Hold Em poker after that. Ahhh! - loving the universe, found out today, that the water is being shut off in our building all day Friday for plumbing repairs.

Well, I sure have been rambling on... Stuff sure takes much longer to spell out and explain than it took in the first place... And then might not make sense, or mean what it was meant to mean, to the reader.

Suffice it to say, I haven't yet gotten around to reading the notes we were given on Tuesday - part of our homework for next Tuesday. We are encouraged to journal, hence this blog - which I am now going to take a break from and play bejeweled for an hour.

Happy Mothers Day May 8/11
It has been a few days since I started this blog. I still have to read the homework assignment and journal for that matter and maybe do a couple more loads of laundry too.

Off and out and about for now, speak at you later.

LATER IN The Day
I just reread this in hopes that it would lead me somewhere. I am wondering if writing with pen on paper might work better for journalling purposes. Purposes - I keep wanting to discover what my life purpose is. Maybe there is more than 1. Purposes seems to fit, feels right. Creates a bigger picture. Maybe it is like setting goals, and the discovery journey needs to be broken down into smaller bundles. Or maybe the "it" is right in front of my nose and I don't see it. Maybe I am in the middle of my purpose. Maybe there is nothing to be looking for.

I ended up doing 2 more loads of laundry today. I had had the thought last Tuesday that maybe I would do a couple loads on Thursday or at least before Tuesday. Thursday brought other 'doings', so today was the day. And - love the universe - someone was doing a load of laundry in the laundry room, so there was only 2 washers available. I had said that I would do 2 more loads, mmhhh! Interesting.

I read the homework today and did the exercises. Going to hit the sack and do the 'Body Scan" CD.

JUN 27th now. Time to post this.

Creating a Personal Vision Statement

Identifying my Personal Vision:

1. Things I really enjoy doing?

- travelling, cruising, visiting new places and revisiting and exploring places I have been to before including my home city. Being a tourist and doing tourist things.

- learning new things everyday. Attending workshops/groups/conferences/seminars, facilitating groups/workshops. Listening to tapes, CD's, websites, YouTube, etc.

- connecting with others in an honest, meaningful, nurturing, supportive, healing exchange. Using my energy healing techniques. Making a difference in someones life.

- going to restaurants, eating nourishing, tasty meals.

- spending quality fun times with Ralph. Spending quality fun times with friends

- teaching/mentoring others. Being taught (learning)/being mentored by others.

- spending "me" time alone. Contemplating, meditating, in prayer, growing, connecting with my spiritual self, journaling/writing/blogging, affirmations.

- connecting with others via email/phone. Connecting people with others. Forwarding information to others. Supporting others in their ventures. Advertising events, spreading the word. Making connections/networking.

- attending Unity churches. Connecting with GOD. Connecting with Love

- swimming / exercising in water.

2. What brings me happiness/joy?

- playing, laughing with Ralph/ grandchildren/ family/ all children

- being healthy and fit

- nature, flowers, trees, birds, dolphins/whales/sea creatures. All GODS creations

- simple things (stones, rocks, smiles, playing,)

- traveling/cruising/flying/driving/RV'ing

- visiting far away friends

- playing poker, card/board games, meeting new people

- camping in Casino parking lots overnight(s), Thousand Trails/Encore properties, on the desert free locations. Exploring.

- touring around Canada and Alaska and U.S.

- participating in workshops, groups, seminars, conferences etc.

- eating / finding good restaurants

- personal growth, going to Unity, learning/growing, AhHa's, light bulb moments (GOD moments/winks)

- doing / receiving energy holistic healing exchanges. Working on other practitioners. Introducing others to healing/energy work and relaxation programs/Wellness Clinics.

- walking, exercising, swimming

- living in a clean healthy clutter free home with Ralph

- finding great deals at garage sales etc

- being generous and giving things away

- grounding and centering (responding vs reacting) [a work in progress LOL]

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3. The two best moments of my past week?

- laughing at/with Ralph numerous times. Playfulness.

- doing energy work on Judith and going for lunch afterwards. Making connections.

4. Three things I'd do when I win the Lottery?

- go on a cruise, travel, use 25 year pass, see Australia and New Zealand.

- share with family, friends, tithe to Unity Church and support Hospice & hospital

- go to retreats, have treatment sessions (chiropractic, massage, physio etc), take more workshops/classes/learn more

(- hire cleaning service and chef)

5. Issues or Causes I feel deeply about?

- Letting people make their own informed decisions.

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6. My most important values?

- Having integrity, being honest/real, not phony

- Connecting to God / leading by example / walking my talk

- Being fit and healthy (taking care of my body temple, eating well/exercise)

- Leaving the world a better place by letting my light shine brighter, connecting with others in a meaningful healing way, leading others to be the best they are meant to be by being an example myself. Love.

- Having fun, playing, enjoying grandchildren and family and friends.

- Learning and improving myself, being humble and grateful, accepting the moment as it is no matter what it looks like. Having faith, trusting.

- Making others' lives easier or more pleasant

- Enjoying and supporting family and friends/spending time with family and friends

- continue learning and exploring personal growth

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7. Things I can do at the Good to Excellent level?

- energy healing work/mentoring/counselling/supporting/listening/teach/learn

- write stories/journal/blogging/

- find free/low cost resources

- networking / connecting people together / spreading information

- skillful communication

- facilitate workshops / relaxation groups / support groups /

- mediate, seeing all sides of the picture/stepping back getting new perspective, seeing the bigger picture. Letting GO and Letting GOD.

- Open to trying on new ideas, troubleshooting, problem solving OR not

- listening to my intuitive sense.

- co creating / manifesting (sometimes negatively) Waking up to and noticing the thought seeds I have been planting and choosing to weed out my garden and re plant more nurturing positive thought seeds (seeds I want)

- continuing my personal growth journey with love and joy and fun

- being grateful

- being blessed with miracles in my life (ie. Ralph)

- seeing life lessons Ie. playing tetris, noticing what seems like a mistake or wrong move actually worked out better / jigsaw puzzle, noticing pieces seem to fit for awhile but ended up being readjusted and repositioned (just like life)

- practice grounding and centering. Breathing. Be a calming presence.

8. What I'd like to stop doing or do as little as possible?

- over eating / cleaning up my plate

- procrastinating

- letting fear control my life

- living in poverty consciousness

- not doing for fear of not doing "it" perfectly

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1. Based on my personal research, these are the main things that motivate me/bring me joy and satisfaction:

- Connecting on a sole level with others.

- doing/receiving energy healing

- learning/teaching/facilitating

- traveling

- eating in restaurants

- playing,laughing, enjoying children, keeping it simple, simple things

- communing with GOD and all creation

- loving Ralph and others

- nurturing myself and others

- experiencing personal growth

- responding vs reacting, being deep rootedly grounded and centered / present in the now moment. Being mindful and noticing.


2. My greatest strengths/abilities/traits/things I do best:

- energy healing, listening, nurturing and supporting others

- open and willing to learn and heal on my own personal journey

- networking

- teach, facilitate, communication skills

- trust the bigger picture, accept the moment, connect in faith

- listening to my intuition

- co creating / manifesting

- gratitude

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3. At least two things I can start doing/do more often that use my strengths and bring me joy:

- sharing with others in a workshop environment (set up and run workshops)

- participate in more opportunities that come my way

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4. This is my Personal Vision Statement for myself (in 50 words or less):

DRAFT 2

Nurturing my physical temple, I am healthy and fit. I engage in teaching activities, learning and shining my light brightly as a living example of GOD's love. Living in the flow expressing gratitude. Relationships with Ralph and others are joyfully playful. Living mindfully in an uncluttered clean healthy home of abundance and prosperity, making wise choices. Attuned to Divine Light, joyfully co-creating my journey with spirit as I open to GODS guidance. All unfolds smoothly and naturally. I seek to know GOD more fully and my awareness grows each day.


DRAFT 1

I continue to nurture my physical temple and am healthy and fit. I engage in teaching activities, always learning as I shine my light brightly as a living example of GOD's love. Expressing (miss typed here and had "Expressomg" - one key over and I got Oh My GOD at the end of Express) gratitude (ie. the breath prayer of thank you) "GOD winks" and abundance flow into my life. I am happy, joyful, playful in my relationship with Ralph and others. Learning tools to continue my journey of personal growth. Living an uncluttered clean healthy life of abundance and prosperity. Living mindfully, making wise choices for the good of all. Attuning myself to Divine Light. Joyfully creating and recreating my journey and relationship with spirit (Divine Light) as I open to GODS guidance directing me. Living in the flow. All unfolds smoothly and naturally. I let GO and I let GOD. I seek to know GOD more fully and my awareness grows each day. Know for my creative talents. Travel, cruising.


more about writing a vision statement off the web.....

1. Your vision needs to reflect your strengths and talents.
2. Your strengths and talents are about who you are.
3. What is special about you?
4. What makes you happy?
5. What do you love about yourself?
6. What are you best at?

Complete the following statements about yourself:
My strengths and talents are:
What I believe is special or distinct about me:
What I love most about myself: