Greetings
I will start with a chronological account of events and then will use this space to journal into healings.
Back in Nov 2010, I attended a group orientation session and then a one on one intake meeting with a counselor for the local mental health program to decide which of the various group programs I would best fit into. Then it was 'sit back and wait' - 3 to 6 months, depending on which group.
During this wait time, at the end of Jan, 2011, the Mindful Meditation Cognitive Base 8 week group being held at the offices of a drug and alcohol abuse program was offered to me. I discovered other free drop-in group programs also offered at this location and attended the ear acupuncture, art therapy, nutrition, women's group, Yoga, food and mood and others. I benefitted from these daily sessions that were just as relevant to me as a non client. Alas, when the Mindful Meditation Group finished I was told that it was also the end of my being able to participate in the other programs. Back to 'waiting' mode.
Fast forward to May, 2011, the wait is over - well sort of, in one way anyways. The Later in Life Group Therapy session starts, after being postponed a week. The first introductory session lays out the program. 17 weeks of 2 hour sessions, at 1 -3, on both Mondays and Tuesdays, geez - that runs us into mid Sept. given a number of holiday Mondays. I notice how I am ticked off, so ask about also doing one of the other group programs at the same time - anything to make it more worth while being tied down for the summer months. No satisfaction offered. I am considering dumping the group...
Hence the journalling. Am I resisting? What am I resisting?? Feeling stuck, looking for a way out - some way to get some of my control back... So much for the 1st Monday session.
Then comes Tuesdays session. I started the day with a consultation appointment with a Holistic Practitioner in a neighboring community which took until 12:30. It is a good 1/2 drive back. After stopping at the Seniors Centre for a pee and to pick my husband up so he could drop me off at the hospital - you guessed it... I was about 20 minutes late. Now, was that me trying to control - they had stressed attendance and punctuality, asking us to phone and let them know if we were going to be late.
I chose to be in the moment at my healing appointment, not wanting to cut it short or short change myself. I chose me first for a change. Trusting the bigger picture, knowing that the Universe had a purpose. I trusted that I would arrive at the group at the right time, GODS time - not our man made time. Turned out that the others - 8 of them, were interviewing each other. (even number for 1 on 1) :>) Then we went around with each of them introducing each other to the rest of us. All I had to do was introduce myself answering their 3 questions.
1. Where was I born and raised?
2. What is my favorite food?
3. What do I want to get out of the group?
Thank you Universe, I hadn't missed anything.
So, back to the Monday / Tuesday schedule. Two Mondays a month have Wellness Clinics I like to participate in, in the mornings. Then there is a couple of morning exercise groups at the Seniors Centre on the way to the Hospital location that I would like to go to. Tuesdays there's also other exercise groups at the Seniors Ctr., or I could play Texas Hold Em poker from 11 - 12:30ish on the way to the 1 P.M. group. Breaks the walk up, gets me exercising and saves me parking costs too!
Oh, Tuesdays group... part of the session was about making SMART goals. We all wrote out and shared a goal that we would do for this week. (I learned lots from the process, but probably not what the facilitator would expect) She had used my goal of doing laundry (original question was "What could you do this week that would make you happy?" or something along that line... She refined my doing laundry into more specific terms... How many loads. Wash / dry / fold / hang / put away / WHEN - I said after lunch Wed. with friends (which some of us do after a Wellness Clinic) She said what time 2 ? 3? I said 3 p.m. A few minutes later she referred back to my example and said something about "how I would be checking the time and hurrying everyone at lunch cause I had to do laundry at 3... My internal unspoken reaction was "nope, never, wouldn't do that - I am happiest being in the moment, in the flow, in the right place at the right time, etc.. etc...
So I changed my goal to doing laundry Thurs. morning. Well, ended up doing laundry Tues when I got home - mostly cause I was in the mood and just in case something else came up Thurs morning... Which left me free to go to the Seniors Ctr for the Joint Works exercise class at 10 Thursday morning and then play Texas Hold Em poker after that. Ahhh! - loving the universe, found out today, that the water is being shut off in our building all day Friday for plumbing repairs.
Well, I sure have been rambling on... Stuff sure takes much longer to spell out and explain than it took in the first place... And then might not make sense, or mean what it was meant to mean, to the reader.
Suffice it to say, I haven't yet gotten around to reading the notes we were given on Tuesday - part of our homework for next Tuesday. We are encouraged to journal, hence this blog - which I am now going to take a break from and play bejeweled for an hour.
Happy Mothers Day May 8/11
It has been a few days since I started this blog. I still have to read the homework assignment and journal for that matter and maybe do a couple more loads of laundry too.
Off and out and about for now, speak at you later.
LATER IN The Day
I just reread this in hopes that it would lead me somewhere. I am wondering if writing with pen on paper might work better for journalling purposes. Purposes - I keep wanting to discover what my life purpose is. Maybe there is more than 1. Purposes seems to fit, feels right. Creates a bigger picture. Maybe it is like setting goals, and the discovery journey needs to be broken down into smaller bundles. Or maybe the "it" is right in front of my nose and I don't see it. Maybe I am in the middle of my purpose. Maybe there is nothing to be looking for.
I ended up doing 2 more loads of laundry today. I had had the thought last Tuesday that maybe I would do a couple loads on Thursday or at least before Tuesday. Thursday brought other 'doings', so today was the day. And - love the universe - someone was doing a load of laundry in the laundry room, so there was only 2 washers available. I had said that I would do 2 more loads, mmhhh! Interesting.
I read the homework today and did the exercises. Going to hit the sack and do the 'Body Scan" CD.
JUN 27th now. Time to post this.
I will start with a chronological account of events and then will use this space to journal into healings.
Back in Nov 2010, I attended a group orientation session and then a one on one intake meeting with a counselor for the local mental health program to decide which of the various group programs I would best fit into. Then it was 'sit back and wait' - 3 to 6 months, depending on which group.
During this wait time, at the end of Jan, 2011, the Mindful Meditation Cognitive Base 8 week group being held at the offices of a drug and alcohol abuse program was offered to me. I discovered other free drop-in group programs also offered at this location and attended the ear acupuncture, art therapy, nutrition, women's group, Yoga, food and mood and others. I benefitted from these daily sessions that were just as relevant to me as a non client. Alas, when the Mindful Meditation Group finished I was told that it was also the end of my being able to participate in the other programs. Back to 'waiting' mode.
Fast forward to May, 2011, the wait is over - well sort of, in one way anyways. The Later in Life Group Therapy session starts, after being postponed a week. The first introductory session lays out the program. 17 weeks of 2 hour sessions, at 1 -3, on both Mondays and Tuesdays, geez - that runs us into mid Sept. given a number of holiday Mondays. I notice how I am ticked off, so ask about also doing one of the other group programs at the same time - anything to make it more worth while being tied down for the summer months. No satisfaction offered. I am considering dumping the group...
Hence the journalling. Am I resisting? What am I resisting?? Feeling stuck, looking for a way out - some way to get some of my control back... So much for the 1st Monday session.
Then comes Tuesdays session. I started the day with a consultation appointment with a Holistic Practitioner in a neighboring community which took until 12:30. It is a good 1/2 drive back. After stopping at the Seniors Centre for a pee and to pick my husband up so he could drop me off at the hospital - you guessed it... I was about 20 minutes late. Now, was that me trying to control - they had stressed attendance and punctuality, asking us to phone and let them know if we were going to be late.
I chose to be in the moment at my healing appointment, not wanting to cut it short or short change myself. I chose me first for a change. Trusting the bigger picture, knowing that the Universe had a purpose. I trusted that I would arrive at the group at the right time, GODS time - not our man made time. Turned out that the others - 8 of them, were interviewing each other. (even number for 1 on 1) :>) Then we went around with each of them introducing each other to the rest of us. All I had to do was introduce myself answering their 3 questions.
1. Where was I born and raised?
2. What is my favorite food?
3. What do I want to get out of the group?
Thank you Universe, I hadn't missed anything.
So, back to the Monday / Tuesday schedule. Two Mondays a month have Wellness Clinics I like to participate in, in the mornings. Then there is a couple of morning exercise groups at the Seniors Centre on the way to the Hospital location that I would like to go to. Tuesdays there's also other exercise groups at the Seniors Ctr., or I could play Texas Hold Em poker from 11 - 12:30ish on the way to the 1 P.M. group. Breaks the walk up, gets me exercising and saves me parking costs too!
Oh, Tuesdays group... part of the session was about making SMART goals. We all wrote out and shared a goal that we would do for this week. (I learned lots from the process, but probably not what the facilitator would expect) She had used my goal of doing laundry (original question was "What could you do this week that would make you happy?" or something along that line... She refined my doing laundry into more specific terms... How many loads. Wash / dry / fold / hang / put away / WHEN - I said after lunch Wed. with friends (which some of us do after a Wellness Clinic) She said what time 2 ? 3? I said 3 p.m. A few minutes later she referred back to my example and said something about "how I would be checking the time and hurrying everyone at lunch cause I had to do laundry at 3... My internal unspoken reaction was "nope, never, wouldn't do that - I am happiest being in the moment, in the flow, in the right place at the right time, etc.. etc...
So I changed my goal to doing laundry Thurs. morning. Well, ended up doing laundry Tues when I got home - mostly cause I was in the mood and just in case something else came up Thurs morning... Which left me free to go to the Seniors Ctr for the Joint Works exercise class at 10 Thursday morning and then play Texas Hold Em poker after that. Ahhh! - loving the universe, found out today, that the water is being shut off in our building all day Friday for plumbing repairs.
Well, I sure have been rambling on... Stuff sure takes much longer to spell out and explain than it took in the first place... And then might not make sense, or mean what it was meant to mean, to the reader.
Suffice it to say, I haven't yet gotten around to reading the notes we were given on Tuesday - part of our homework for next Tuesday. We are encouraged to journal, hence this blog - which I am now going to take a break from and play bejeweled for an hour.
Happy Mothers Day May 8/11
It has been a few days since I started this blog. I still have to read the homework assignment and journal for that matter and maybe do a couple more loads of laundry too.
Off and out and about for now, speak at you later.
LATER IN The Day
I just reread this in hopes that it would lead me somewhere. I am wondering if writing with pen on paper might work better for journalling purposes. Purposes - I keep wanting to discover what my life purpose is. Maybe there is more than 1. Purposes seems to fit, feels right. Creates a bigger picture. Maybe it is like setting goals, and the discovery journey needs to be broken down into smaller bundles. Or maybe the "it" is right in front of my nose and I don't see it. Maybe I am in the middle of my purpose. Maybe there is nothing to be looking for.
I ended up doing 2 more loads of laundry today. I had had the thought last Tuesday that maybe I would do a couple loads on Thursday or at least before Tuesday. Thursday brought other 'doings', so today was the day. And - love the universe - someone was doing a load of laundry in the laundry room, so there was only 2 washers available. I had said that I would do 2 more loads, mmhhh! Interesting.
I read the homework today and did the exercises. Going to hit the sack and do the 'Body Scan" CD.
JUN 27th now. Time to post this.
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