There I go again, forgetting the simple answers / manufacturing the difficult - of course the blood tests can be done elsewhere - Daaaahhhh. Thanks for bringing me back to basics, reminding me to "keep it simple" >>> a message I seem to be needing to hear again and again. A simple thing that means a lot. You see I have already expanded it to other topics going on in my life. And it produces a 'big' AH ha >> of course / that's so simple / and I shake my head in wonderment at myself for being so tied up in the sillyness. And the load ( I didn't even realize was there ) that I was carrying on my shoulders is lifted. We are strange creatures, we humans.
So, you see >>>> SENDING POSITIVE VIBES YOUR WAY >>>> is focusing on me. IT IS HELPING ME. Ah ha!!! This just brought home to me an expanded meaning of the concept that we are <>. Connected. Mhhh!
My connection with you has been very healing and helpful for me. You have enriched my life in many unexpected ways. You are not a burden to me at all. I am delighted to have met you. And I have already had the AH HA moment, realizing that I have met a few people now that I would never had met if it weren't for this Cancer Journey. People that I KNOW I was supposed to meet.
And, others that have drifted in and then out of my life are magically now resurfacing. Popping back in, in the most magical ways. Last Wed at the monthly Steveston Comm Ctr's Wellness Clinic, ( nurses doing blood pressure clinic and others doing reflexology, TT, Reiki etc. ) 2 different people that I haven't seen for years ( one probably 7 or more ) Both said they had been thinking of me just the last week or 2. It was a wonderfully delicious morning of reconnecting.
BACK TO THE ' SAGA ' >>> LOL - Yes, I did make it to a wonderful dinner at Milestones with a wonderful visit with Anne and Mary. ( 2 more wonderful lady's you will love ) And the Tues night relaxation group was great.
Ahhh!!! Just realized - the magic of the universe started ( is always there actually, there is no start or finish ) Tues night when on the way home from the relaxation group >> we ran into another lady I haven't seen for awhile. Just magically. MMHhhhh!!!
Lots to reflect on here. Thanks for giving me this forum to reflect. See how helpful you are to me. Ah Ha ( another light bulb moment - LOL ) >>> IN ' SIMPLE ' WAYS. LOL How simple. ROFL.
Just keep re reading your words to get all your questions answered. The 'challenges' ( struggles ) are NOT an EVERY DAY thing for the FULL cycle between treatments. JUST A FEW DAYS HERE AND A DAY OR 2 THERE. For me, the pattern has been for a few days, a few days after the treatment and a couple days leading into the next treatment. (ie: - Chemotherapy on Thur., - finish the minimum anti nausea meds Sat morning >> challenging few days starting Sun / Mon. ( downward spiral - emotionally mostly ) for a few days. Then back to " normal ". Then of course the panic, anxiety, fear, uncertainty, angry etc. a couple days leading up to next treatment. A roller coaster ride.
(P.S. - Definition of ' normal ' = a setting on the washing machine.)
I think of you often. You will be fine. Just remember to <> <> <> ( Light bulb moment AhHa - I am saying all the things I need to hear myself. ) <> <> <> <> ( just doesn't look like our picture of it sometimes ) <>
Remember, we are not alone. We just feel that way sometimes because we forget to humble ourselves and pray / ask our higher power for help.
What do I say and how, or do I ?? That is the question. Lets just say, Ralph and I had a stupid blow up yesterday. I am noticing how I am retreating to ' old ' habits of closing off and doing ' it' myself, and going to places I don't like - thought wise, that I KNOW don't work for me. IE. NEEDING TO BE RIGHT STUFF. Needing to make different choices. Do, I want to be RIGHT or do I want to be healthy??? The answer should be obvious , right !!! Shaking my head. It should be an easy decision. Just a 'choice' right !!!!
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AHHH HAAA - Simple again -
As I sit here struggling, wondering how to let go / what is it I need to do !!! / learn !!! Getting more and more tied up in the weight of it all. <<<<> <> <> ( Ahh - whoops >>> more to reflect on - how have I been treating Ralph )
Yes, I do realize it has to do with the stress we are dealing with toooooooo!!! Just got that conscious reminder, another ah ha thought.
Well, you certainly got much more than you bargained for in this reply to your SIMPLE (LOL) message.
By the way, I got your beautiful card in the mail. It is gorgeous. You are so talented. Thank you so much. I look forward to more. Hint, hint.
Well, I will leave you with one more definition.
FINE = Any 'f' word you want to use, insecure, neurotic, and enjoying it.
Taking care. Thanks again for this healing platform, you have been a big help in this moment. Lynn from Richmond.
" Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly" Much love to you, precious angel.
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