This is so exciting, and enlightning. ( still not so sure I really remembered what was so exciting and enlightning - LOL - >> probably that the moments change and now Elisse and Anne will not know what I am talking about because I deleted the previous messages - oh well, mushrooms do well in the dark LOL) And it really doesn't matter and was not super important or I would have remembered it.
Thank you for adding me in your prayers too. I am definitely open and humbly accept this most powerful life force sent my way. Prayers make a huge difference. I believe I feel the effects and definite miricles are in my life. In 1992 when I had an emergency Hysterectomy and Cervical Cancer diagnosis and was sent to VCC for radiation treatments {(aside here - you may notice that I write out in full things like radiation TREATMENTS (AHHHH - this will work even better - I was wondering why I was getting off track here and now I know - yippee - ) ( just can't keep up to my thoughts here LOL) >>> I find it important to keep the treatment and therapy connected to the medical words. So now I will be writing --- chemoTHERAPY TREATMENT SESSIONS. That emphasizes the words I connect with and balances out and puts things into the proper perpective. Keeps me in a more positive mode and helps me focus on the imagery and visualization of inviting in and the treatments working with my being ) }
As I was saying, before I interrupted myself - LOL , In 1992 a friend visiting me at the hospital came up with the idea of connecting at 10 p.m. She organized a prayer circle and invited everyone to connect thru prayer wherever they were, at 10 p.m. I also chose to believe that there really is no time / space , so if I missed the 10 pm. earthy manmade time - I would still connect whenever it was - by just stating in whatever moment it was that I was connecting to the 10 p.m. prayer circle.
Lately I was thinking of resurrecting this 10p.m. idea, but as I write this I realize that it is done just as things are now. I think we as humans tend to think we need structure, but I am beginning to question this as restricting the big picture. Tying us down. Disconnecting us from the higher power / God. I am sitting here in this moment wondering if this scary step I am contemplating here is a huge step into - faith. Trusting. Believing that God can and will do what we ask him for without our meddling help of structuring and controlling and manipulating. This is about asking and then taking that leap of faith and LETTING "IT" GO. Being open to Gods timing not demanding our own timing.
Hmmmm! The scary step - cancel , canel, love , love. No need to think of or label the step and making it harder - it is just a step, a choice. I am learning lots here. Again, thank you for this healing space and thank you God for adding this wonderful being to my life. I am grateful.
NOW, can I get to what I was originally going to write. NOT > another aside here LOL! Do you ever watch channel 71 APTN. I often check it out - just as I did here in this moment. It has some wonderful healing programs , very interesting.
NOW, --- LOL I love how the universe works, and love being connected to the moment and flowing with it instead of flipping into my wonderful restricted world of doing things MY way. Hee hee - so funny. Seeing myself with love and humor here. Feeling surrounded and loved and connected.
DId you miss me?? Hee hee! Elisse popped up on MSN messenger so I have been chatting with her. Turned out to be very enlightening and healing and very connected to this email moment as well. Another God Wink magical moment. I told her I would forward her this email too. She always changes her MSN name - today it reads " It worrys me how dumb you are" This turned out to be very positive and healing for me - bringing smiles and lightness to my journey.
I will copy some of it to here mainly to have record of it.
I am just replying to an email from Kim (of kim and cindy fame) - it is turning into a long and healing and powerful learning tool for me. I will forward it to you.
MSN excerpts:
"and just as I am a piece of the overall jigsaw puzzle, we all fit into the cosmic picture that may not be visible to us in the moment"
"it reminds us that we are truly interconnected and not against each other and that connectedness builds trust"
WELL, are you ever lucky Kim - LOL. As I was copying some of my MSN with Elisse stuff here, Anne P. popped up. I had a wonderful healing exchange with her and was planning to again copy and pasted some of it to this email. But the universe is taking care of us again, cause when Anne and I said goodbye - I clicked the boxed closed. Much to your relief I am guessing.
Now, what was it that I was originally going to write about I am wondering. LOL
So, as I am reading your email again, hoping for an answer.
Ahh ! The answer was in the original email from me.
I was going to say, how the moments change. The universe in charge takes care of us each and every moment. My Thur ChemoTHERAPY TREATMENT got changed to Friday. Worked out great in many ways - I have been having a runny nose, sneezing, mild sore throat thing going on and Thur was at its worse - felt much better Fri. Also the drive in was much easier and safer Fri with all the snow. So someone is taking great care of me.
Goodbye for now all. Love and hugs.
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