DECISIONS SHIFT

Sometimes it is about being real and honest with myself about how I am feeling. Sometimes it is about finding a way to make a shift. Sometimes it is about acceptance of what is. Sometimes it is about exploring and experimenting.  Sometimes it is about finding a distraction.  Sometimes it is about deciding to make a change.  Sometimes it is about noticing an organic shift before waking up to noticing, accepting, deciding, exploring, distracting or being real and honest.

In no particular order, like the time:

  - putting the brakes on a mental downward spiral by deciding to transform myself into a living birthday card for R by getting people to sign my back.

  - clicking on a TV or radio program or hearing a song that shifts my mood

  - on the drive back to the women's shelter, each song on the radio had me crying cleansing tears. Decided to listen to one more song at my destination and it had nothing to do with anything.  The magical journey was over.

  - process of finding the woman's shelter had me calling back in an hour.  Ended up sitting on the White Rock beach watching a beautiful dog run back and forth, back and forth, and into the waves, then back and forth up and down the beach no obvious owner in sight. Eventually the dogs 'owner?' arrived.  He told me that his wife and him had moved and had given the dog to their son and his family.  Numerous times the dog ran away and showed up at his new home.  They gave up and the dog now lived with them.

  - at the woman's shelter, the case worker showing me around had to take a phone call.  I checked out a couple of pages taped to the wall she had pointed out on codependent unhealthy and interdependent healthy relationships.  What I was leaving, what I wanted.  It was a moment of surrendering and I stayed there for a month.

  - one night a new lady arrived at the women's shelter. She didn't know the rules and phoned her husband and started screaming at him.  This propelled me to check the resource paperwork and phone a relationship workshop called Gemini.  Turned out that it started the next day and was about polishing the "Gem In I".  I also began going to 'codependency' 12 step meetings.
During this supportive safe haven time of personal growth, the universe tested me - a decision moment when it seemed easier to just go back to A.
And there was the dreaded phone call to tell my mom that shocked my world...  She caught me at work and when I hung up, I asked my co-workers " who was that lady?  I've never met her before."  It was like she had been doing her own personal growth work.

  - I moved back from Toronto where I was taking courses from a group called PSI (People Searching Inside)  Turned out friends here had been on a similar parallel journey.

  - discovering and revisiting " ho'oponopono "  Many times I find tools that work for me and then drift away and forget about them, then the universe brings me back to them.  Like ho'oponopono...  Sequence unfolding >>> Coast to Coast A.M. program talking about near death experience with man saying the 'life review' for him wasn't his, but was all about everyone he had hurt.  He felt ALL the pain he had ever caused others all at once, whether intentional or not.  Awhile back, I had the thought, wondering if it would work to do a life review before death.  Another step in forgiveness work.  It has been an amazing journey of noticing buried memories floating into consciousness and choosing to release them.  >>> side tracked at YouTube one day when universe reminded me of 'Ho'oponopono'.
Even as I write this, more memories surface.  Paused here to release and let go even though I had already forgotten the memories that had surfaced.  Then chose to finish listening to YouTube video of Abraham Hicks "Is Your Path Unclear" that universe presented to me while I thought I was researching for Craig Hamilton meditation (which led me to watch Craig Hamilton-Parker, a psychic). Feeling blessed. Still haven't listened to a C.H meditation.  I'll go do that now...

God wink / designer moment / speed bump

  - meeting someone that propels me into researching YouTube or TED talk or wherever the magic of the Internet takes me, one thing leading to another.

  - sharing with others helps me.

  - praying miracles like my name tag lanyard being looped around the scarf knotted around my neck.

  - being in the right place at the right time...   missed a bus, which had me walking down the street at my destination, as Emiko was walking towards me.  I was meeting R at Legends, so
E joined me and we all had a wonderful visit.

  - another time at Legends, we saw R's son Ted who was there with a group of friends > some R hadn't seen since they were kids.

  - stretching time when late gets us there on time.

  - stretching time going to mask making weekly class.  We left late and missed the bus. Got there early before anyone else. Made a half hour trip in seemingly 10 minutes.

  - leaving A. in Kelso. Car at bus station when I got to Langley.  No A. in sight so I jumped in car and went to house to grab my belongings and left.  Apparently he had gone across the street to the bakery.

  - meeting R at Unity and universe giving me a choice - another motorcycle guy I met. Healthy interdependent vs unhealthy codependent relationship.

  - asking the parking angels to find us easy parking spaces.

  - one day I had to drive around the block 3 times before I found a place to park.  My reaction was, "wonder what that was about?"  When I went into the medical building, there getting off the elevator was the doctor I wanted to run into to give him paperwork he wanted.  Ahh Haa!!  I was too early was I !!!

  - relaxation group experience working with a lady in distress and just as work was winding down another lady rushes in apologizing for being 20 minutes late.  She had  'somehow' driven right past the building. To us, her timing was perfect.  The healing session would have been different if she had been there.

  - the bright colourful dress that fell off the hanger for me. I loved it and wore it for years.

  - writing stories helps me

  - yesterday YouTube led me to a Jean Houston webinar that I listen to today.  Most of what is written above came to mind as Jean was talking about the "3 Keys to Unlocking Your Quantum Powers".  My memories came to light.

  - reframing 666 >>> A. made me go back to the mechanic to change an engine repair because the part had 666 in the number. Today I love 666 and each time it shows up on computer games I celebrate my own personal growth forgiveness work and it shows up a higher % of times than random chance.