STILL WATER RUNS DEEP

Sometimes the universe offers to stir up the waters that run deep within each of us. Opportunities come our way to churn up and loosen the silt of our lives, allowing us to let go and release. For me, days or even weeks before a workshop of any sort, I’ll notice the stirrings begin, sometimes even before I have decided to attend said workshop. This wonderful process continues on at the workshop and then sometimes for long afterwards. As is the case with this story about the last T.T. workshop I assisted at.

I have attempted many times to put into words a description of the sequence of events that transpired that day. Nothing I write seems to ring true. I am aware that some words are just not ready to be written as yet, as I struggle with the resistance to write them, hence the healing continues even months later.

Part of the struggle is about wanting to display my words so they clearly speak what I am trying so hard to express. What I need to do is learn “Barack language”, that clear, concise way of weaving words together to inspire all that read me.

Until then, just know that energy shifted and there were many wonderful ah ha moments of awareness throughout the day.

I seized the moment and made the choice to practice what we teach, to honor myself and what I needed. Instead of me doing the upcoming demonstration of T.T., I asked to be the one receiving as I had a mild headache. This turned into a rich experience for all, as each of the students were invited to assess what the energy field was like on someone with a headache. It was a rich experience for me as well and I also learned a lot.

Having just received T.T., my deep waters were churning. Wanting to take off and be outside by myself for awhile, I chose instead to sit quietly in my own process as I was observing the students giving each other T.T. I questioned whether it was my stuff or someone else’s or a combination of both. I suspected both, which was confirmed later when we were all sharing. In the moment, I trusted that “this too shall pass”, and it did.

There are many characters in this story, some present and some not. There are many stories within this story that has links to many other stories all with different perspectives of the same workshop.

The T.T. process has truly enriched my life. I walk through this journey I am on grateful for all my special whirlpools that stir me up from deep within.


By Lynn Keeling
Feb 22, 2009