BREAKING OUT

BREAKING OUT

What a magical morning of unfolding. A morning of choices. Choosing to stay home instead of going to the HAM radio coffee gathering with Ralph this morning. Thinking of getting some laundry done. Hasn’t happened yet, as I write these words.

Here is yet another account of my life unfolding.

Ralph was obviously in need of some ‘he’ time without me. And truth be told, he was wearing thin on me and I was more than happy to let him head off on his own this morning.

I was online catching up with the Gary blogspot entries. Switching back and forth between tabs between Gary’s New Life and hotmail where I was writing my comments to him on an email. Very powerful healing going on for me. So much laughter and various insights into my own journey. Finally caught up and email sent. Now what I wonder!

Ah! I feel like setting myself up on the couch and maybe some TV. Mmmhh! Nothing of interest on. AH HA!!! I will listen to the Sylvia Browne CD I had playing in the background while on the computer – “Tools For Life” and really listen to it / give it my full attention. WOW!!! The imagery and healing. If only I could paint, draw…. I also listened to details and opened my eyes and had a drink of water when the thought to do so appeared.

Then, before it is finished I have the thought to get up. Immediately my left brain logic kicks in and says, no wait till the end. Then my body wants to go pee. I catch the moment and decide to follow the first instinct thought and get up. Listening to my body when it speaks is something I am doing more and more these days.

My journey takes me for the bathroom break. This story is blossoming in my head. The title is revealed. And here I am.

On the way I followed the thoughts – go down the hall to Wilma’s and get the newspaper (we are looking after her mail / paper for a few days). Still catching those fleeting thoughts, I got another glass of water and made some tea. Then I felt the need to pee again, and challenged myself with the logical thought that I had just pee’d and didn’t need to go. My body begged to differ and off I toddled to the bathroom again. Surprise, I did have to go. LOL. Then I was lead to turning on the Sylvia Browne CD again and wondered if I was now into controlling and making everything just right perfect – then the answer was revealed as I came back to the computer to write. Yesterday Ralph changed the desk top, we now have a family Christmas picture in our Olympic mittens and Canada blanket on display, instead of the blue screen and a wonderful slide show of other pictures as a screen saver. And there he was, my wonderful Ralph, a beautiful picture of him on the screen at just that exact moment. Perfect timing. I am in the right place at the right moment, moment by moment.
Lovingly Lynn k Jan 23/10