Learning and Growing

Looking back, I can see that I have been learning and growing ever since I can remember. In the beginning this learning and growing was about adapting to my surroundings. Survival techniques that served me well at the time. Survival techniques that were getting in my way in this present day moment. Time to let go and release what needed to be let go of and released, so I could continue learning and growing as a spiritual human being.
The journey has been a process of 'learning' something (intellectual level) and then 'getting' it (spiritual level). 'Learning' it, is a process of waking up, becoming aware, of hearing what I am ready to hear. Processing. 'Getting' it, is a process of waking up spiritually. 'Getting' it, is simply being. Connecting with the universal (God) flow, my knowing self. Getting in tune. Fine tuning. Being quiet and hearing. Learning to connect. Making the connection. Listening. Listening to my intuition. My knowing self. Trusting that knowing part of me. Valuing that wise knowing self of me. Hearing that wise wonderful part of me that is connected to the universe (God). That part of me that is connected to all that is. My connection to the oneness of the universe. That part of me that knows all the answers, that knows all the questions. That effortless part of me that is in the flow, connected - that knowledgeable part of me that just needs me to listen - slow down and listen. That part of me that will be heard when I am ready to hear it. When the time is right in the process (journey).
I have a sense that I saw things clearly as a very young child and was bewildered that others didn't see things I saw. I turned off, shut down. The emotional hurt and frustrations were too much. I was sensitive and didn't know how to handle it all. I chose to turn the switches off - disconnect. A survival technique that I needed at the time. Disconnecting a bit at a time. Many switches turned off over the years. A journey of finding the switches and turning them off throughout my life. Then awakening and reversing the process - now a journey of finding the switches and turning them back on. Reconnecting the circuits. [a good definition of awakening - awareness] Shutting down and then powering back up process. [definition of life, journey] Meditation = key to waking up - awareness, making the connection, reconnecting, strengthening the connection.
Process of allowing - allowing the creativity to flow. Allowing others to 'be'. Allowing ourselves to 'be'. Allowing ourselves and others to 'be' where we are in our journeys. To be thankful for all our experiences. No judgment. All experiences are 'good' because we learn from them. There is no 'bad'. It is all relative - dependent on whose eyes are seeing the experience. Gratitude. Being grateful for the experience, the lesson. Grateful to everyone that contracted with me to be part of the experience. Awareness of the great love involved for the sacrifices to be made. Being grateful for my part of the experience. Grateful for the process (journey) of learning and growing.
July 8, 1999